Having It All Together

Today is the second day in a row that I’ve gotten both kids to go down for a nap at the exact same time.  Today, I feel like Super Mom.  Today is not ordinary.

I’ve been juggling two kids now for 7 months.  It finally seems normal, but it never really gets any easier.  I remember the first time I went to the grocery store alone with both kids.  I thought I’d just have Miles ride in the cart while I carried Nora in the ring sling.  Only, I didn’t factor in Nora only wanting to be upright in the sling, thus requiring me to support her newborn head most of the time.  Nor did I factor in how hard it was to steer a cart one-handed…or keep a toddler happy while bouncing a baby constantly.  Thankfully, a very sympathetic mother from church with older children saw me coming out, trying to turn the cart with my foot while getting Miles to stop whining.  She pushed my cart all the way to my car for me.

I was grateful to her, but I couldn’t help feeling self-conscious…like I was woefully in over my head without any way to hide it.  I thought I was born to be a mom, but this two-kid thing was not second nature to me.  I felt anything but capable.

Since then, I’ve learned that I am decidedly not capable.  But I’ve also learned that that’s okay.  Sure, there are some days like today when I want to do a Rocky fist-pump because I am rocking it.  Yet, I know that tomorrow my son will probably yell out something very disrespectful to me in Walmart and every judging head in the store will turn to see how I react.  Meanwhile, Nora will be screeching and shoving her face into my chest wanting to nurse.  (Have I mentioned that we never left the house today?  Maybe that’s why I’m rocking it…).

At any rate, I know full well that I won’t feel like Super Mom every day.  Or even most days.  What I do know is three-fold.  1.) God promises to never give me more than I can handle with His Strength.  2.) As one of the dear “older” moms in my life likes to remind me, I will miss this one day.  3.) Super Mom or not, God entrusted me with these babies because He knew that I was the mom they needed.  Capable or not.  Rocking it or not.    IMG_5693

One day when my kids are all grown, it will matter little whether I had everything together or not when they were small.  What will matter is that they saw and felt and tasted Christ’s love overflowing out of me to them each and every day.

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3 thoughts on “Having It All Together

  1. Little do you know, you do have it rocking! You are able to admit your discomfort in situations and be alright with it, and you also know that this moment is fleeting and what’s most important is that you’ve got this. No matter what, you can do all things. It will become easier, trust me. I have five children and I’m amazed at how many people ask how I do it. My response is always, “they didn’t all arrive at once.” You grow with one another. When and if you have a third child, you’ll look back at this and think, “wow, that was much easier than this!”

    • I’m not always alright with it…although I wish I was! Just today I had to realize that a trip to Chick-fil-a with both kids wasn’t as stress-free as I thought. 😉 Thank you for the encouragement! It’s always such a blessing to me to hear from other women who have “been there”.

      • I look forward to your blog posts! It takes me back to when things in my life was at that stage. If you have a moment, maybe you can check into mine; it might have some posts that will peek into possibly your future! i.e. senior year, first sleep overs, driver’s license fear!

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