I woke up this morning without any New Years resolutions. The past year, and especially the past month, have been such a blur that I haven’t even had a chance to give resolutions a thought. For planning, goal-setting, control-loving me, that’s unusual.
In the quiet stillness as everyone else slept I got out my journal and started writing. To my surprise, words and goals began pouring out on the page. Apparently they were all there, they were just waiting for me to let them spill out.
What I discovered was that what I want to be this year is a better version of myself. Here’s what I wrote:
In 2015 I want to be a better…
…follower of Christ. Exuding His joy and light. Recklessly abandoned to what He calls me to do. In awe of His majesty. Taking joy in His blessings.
…wife. Less nit picky, moody, and naggy. More full of grace and love. Abounding in love. More supportive. Speaking with more thought and tact.
…mother. Spending less time on distractions like TV shows and Facebook. Less eager to push my children. More time spent relishing every moment. Less anger. More grace and truth.
…friend. More communication. More seeking out. More dependability. Becoming a better listener and confidant. Caring more. Being more empathetic. Being more truthful, but in love.
…homemaker. More diligent. Less frivolous with my time. More about simplifying and less about buying. Being happy with less.
…gardener. More diligent. More focused. More realistic.
…cook. Paying more attention to detail. Better at planning. Better at balancing taste and health. Better at eating seasonally and storing for later.
…exerciser. Start over. A little each day. Staying healthy for those I love.
…caretaker of my body. Better at eating and staying active. A little more attention to how I look and present myself. Simplifying my wardrobe. Making it represent the woman God created me to be.
…improver of my mind. Less TV and social media. More books and writing.
…writer. More consistent about blogging. Being more careful with words. More honesty. More of the real me.
…caring more about the tasks God gives me to do, and finding joy in them, than the frivolous, empty things of the world. Being brave enough to be the woman God created me to be, and letting go of everything else.