It’s 5:30 on Friday night. Andy is later getting home than he usually is, trying to wrap up everything for the weekend.
He ate a very late lunch at a work meeting, so I’m not starting dinner yet. There’s no telling when he’ll be hungry. Instead, I sit at my kitchen table, sipping a cup of hot chocolate and gazing out the window. Gazing at the mist.
It’s been foggy all day. When I woke up this morning, I looked out our bathroom window to the field beyond and watched a cloud of mystery descend from the mountain. We never had days like this in Arizona. No rain, no snow…just cold. And everything is wet. It’s the kind of day that could seep to your bones, making your eyes droop and body sag. Winter in Arkansas.
Three times today I went out in our yard, training our dog with the new wireless fence. Part of me wanted to just stay inside, but I knew the training was crucial. So I pulled on my hat, my scarf, and my gloves, and trudged out to get Sam. Since moving to Arkansas, I’ve acquired thick rain boots. They would have been perfect for a day like this. But, not wanting to take any extra time, I left on my brown cloth ones that I wore to work and ventured out. I found myself involuntarily looking down, letting the grey day direct my emotions. But something caused me to stop. The toes of my boots were wet.
Instantly I was transported to a different time and place. Can it really be four years ago now? Can it be that long ago that my friend and I went to England in the dead of winter, traipsing all over the countryside in our cloth boots? My toes had been wet then too.
But somehow, back then, it didn’t matter. It was thrilling to experience the newness of grey days and mist, of walking in the rain. The locals thought we were crazy roaming around in it…without any “wellies” even. But we loved it. It was so new, so different.
And with my wet toes came a turning point in my life. A time when, sitting beneath a giant tree in sheep field, I decided to stop trying to live my life by my strength and instead let Christ live in me. I decided to let me die and He live. My life has never been the same.
In one instance, everything was brought into perspective. The meaning of my day-to-day doings, even the trivial task of training little Sam in the fog, meant everything. They meant letting Him live in me, giving up all that I am, was, and ever hope to be for the sake of His will, His path, and His leading. Nothing He sets before us is trivial in His eyes. It’s all a part of His plan to bring glory to His name. Each little task, even cooking dinner or training a dog, when done at His leading, becomes a puzzle piece to His grand design. Oh, how much I miss out on each day. How I needed that reminder!
And to think, it was all because of some wet toes.